While onboard the Godzilla we sailed from Simrishamn to Skoveshaved harbour near Copenhagen. Our initial plan was to sail from Malmö to Laeso but due to climate change (and manmade greed) it was so stormy at sea that the route had changed.
We set of early in the morning around 06.00 or 07.00ish on the 28th of june.
Being at sea felt mesmerzing. I felt like I could stare into the ocean for hours, days, months even. It felt meditative, the mind stopped raising, the only thing that felt real was this very moment, the howling of the wind, the sound of the vawes hitting the boat, the salty smell of the ocean, the wind roughly touching my face, like a firm lover. I felt free. And I love that feeling above all else, I am an sagittarius after all.
We stopped for a hour at Falsterbokanal to wait for the bridge to open and then continued into the open sea. It was nice to have a break from the bumpy vawes. We ate some food together and enjoyd the stillness.
After we continued the weather seemeed fine and I went to sleep after the Godzilla had passsed the bridge between Copenhagen and Malmö. It was around 22.00 and the boat rocked me to sleep to a rather calm and beautiful pink firy glow in the sky.
At some point I woke up to people shouting onboard and the boat rocking side to side, it was dark and the vawes where huge. At times I got scared that the entire boat might tip over. I went back to sleep thou. I was so tired. And a part of me embraced the storm. I embraced the uncertainty. Perhaps cause the last few years have been rather rough for me and I’ve therefor learned with each passing day that no matter how much I stress and worry the future will still be unpredictable. The only way to make it at least a bit easier is to welcome the unknown. To greet it like an old friend. I think this journey was a good reminder to never take anything for granted. Never ever. Not the climate, the sea, people, lovers, friends, food, shelter, health. Or a place to piss.
And Something magical happens when you learn to ride the storm. You are insync with life. And yes it is painful and scary at times but its also heartbreakingly beautiful.
In the night/morning maybe around 02.00 we arrived at Skoveshaved which is a super posh harbour in Copenhagen (the amount of people with white clothes, blond hair and beige dogs was hilarious). We spent the next day recovering from spending almost 20h at sea. I picked stones from the nearby beach and looked for places to do my performance. And on the 30th of June I did my performance where I basically made out with the sea and the nearby rocks by the harbour.
I really enjoyd this experience and learned a lot, mostly I feel like my soul came out of the shadows and danced with me in the rhytm of the ocean.
Some highlights:
drinking coffee in the mornings, the laughter whenever the entire crew would sit down together, Merja’s stories (I particulary enjoyed her giving me reading tips on a comic called Killer condom), all the places I climbed on at various harbours, Simrishamn was especially magical (if anyone knows someone who lives there pls let them know that Im looking for a sugarmama/daddy atm), and I left one of my forest-nudes at the harbour for some posh sailor to enjoy, I also loooved the Godzilla, it was definetely the coolest looking boat I’ve ever seen!
I also enjoyed doing the dishes in the harbour shower while using dish soap as shampoo (thanks for the tip Merja) and most of all I enjoyed the feeling of freedom that this journey offered me. I think most of all I got a reminder that I should, like Snusmumriken in Moomin, every now and then go on adventures and by myself. Its nice to be around people but its also amazing to go into the woods (or in this case into the sea) alone, with only your backpack and an open heart.
Thank you to Mia, Iida, Andy, Merja, Bua and Aga. You have no idea how thankful I am of this experience ♡
Mucho kärlek,
Tonya Fucking Björkbom
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